Grief. It is such a funny word.
Good grief! What an oxymoron that is!
The kids are giving me grief ! Getting closer...
I think that it even sounds the way it makes me feel. Grief.
It is strange emotion. One that I have never really felt before now.
It is exhausting trying to avoid feeling it. And then it catches you, and you end up crying in front of 20 teenagers over an episode of MTV's Exiled show. "Quick, someone give her a hug", I hear them whispering. One or two cry along with me. They know what I am going through and try their best to keep me laughing, God bless them.
That is why that darn grief is such a tricky feeling. One minute you are laughing and dancing the "dougie", and the next minute your heart feels like it will bust and you need a tissue.
I wonder how long it takes to get through grief? People who come up and talk to me, well meaning people, tell me that you never really get through it. That scares me more than anything. I don't want to be bursting into tears in front of people for the rest of my life. It is one thing to sit and have a sad moment, but for it to just sneak attack you whenever it wants to like this, is pretty awful.